(via quote-book)
If anything can discribe my life right now..
Wow
“love doesnt walk away, people do”
True that. Love doesnt just fade away into nothing, people make themselves fall out of love. Nick did it, I did it after nick broke up with me as did so many other people i know. People give up on things and thats when good things die. Not that i care, I mean i care that i spent 4 years with someone who i guess i never really knew, but i dont care that he let it go. Because the more i reflect the more i realzie we werent right for eachother, We were compatable but not fitting. And thats fine. i’m not saying im perfect, but im perfect for someone. I know its early yet but im happy and i wake up in the morning ready for the day and ready for life. No one can ruin this high im on off Kyle and life. Drugs cant match the feelings i have for him. When Nick broke up with me, i felt good when i was smashed or in some random persons arms, now—I wake up happy just knowing that at some point during the day im going to be held by someone who loves me, someone who cant live without me, much like i cant live without him..or i dont want to anyway. I believe everythign happens for a reason and now im seeing why 2009 went the way it did. I do not have angery feelings for nick, nor the other kid. I dont care. i really dont. Both of them can live their lives..im happy i was a small part of both. Byt at this point they both chose to leave..i didnt. I was forced out. And im trying to learn not to try to get back in. its better to just let go. which i am attempting. My walls are being built back up stronger this time. With Kyle by my side, i feel like i can doa nything. no lie. I dont know, i might sound crazy but so be it.
im tired and burnt the fuck out.
Good night.<3
<3
My life was complete, i thought i was whole..why do i feel like im losing control? never thought i could feel like this, you changed my world with just one kiss, the warmth of your smile…
My life has changed drasticly in two weeks. Love at first or well..new sight? i think so. I could not be happier with my life. I have a man beside me who treats me like a princess, loves to kiss and spend time with me..And respects me. Patience has paid off? lets hope. I want thsi shit forever, mayne.
